Tuesday, September 6, 2011

A Plan!!

Finally!! A *real* purpose for this blog! I'm so excited to share my brand new venture in the world with all of you bloggers.

It all started a few days ago when my kind and loving husband asked me (after a major fart/burp combo) if I could please be more girly. More dainty. The sassy tomboy in me said 'tough crackers buddy', but the truth of the matter is I've always had a longing to be more girly and fashion forward. I just never knew how.

I'm learning!

I've bought myself some mineral foundation and mascara (to go along with the eyeliner I rarely put on). I even bought myself some cute necklaces to coordinate with my new clothes. Well, very few new clothes. I'm slowly building myself a 'new look' wardrobe. I've been focusing on key pieces that I can mix and match. Cute tops that with a little layering, will be great for both fall and summer fashion. Things that look just as cute with my favorite sandals as they do with my burlap TOMS.

I'm having a blast! It's a lot of fun, figuring out fashion. I feel like at 25, I'm finally realizing what I want my overall style to be. I'm starting to figure out how I want to be seen as a youngish adult. So Since I now know exactly what I want to do with this blog, I plan on sharing. Not just photo's, but prices and deals as well. I'm learning that looking great doesn't have to break the bank. My current favorite outfit was $52 dollars for shirt/shorts/sandals and accessories. Be prepared, blog world! A new stylish Jasmine is coming at ya

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Sweet Thoughts

I was just looking at photo's from one of my favorite Mommy bloggers. Her little one is precious and looks so much like her awesome Mama, it's adorable. They recently made it to the 2 year nursing mark! I keep seeing all of these women in blogs or in real life nursing their toddlers. It's so beautiful. I love it. It warms my heart and I can't wait to nurse Risto for as long as we can. A sweet little 2 year old who is just beginning to form complete sentences or learning how to express themselves without throwing a tantrum still need the loving, nurturing act of nursing. They just do. Seeing babies nurse longer then a year warms my heart!!

Pre Challenge Prep.

Okay. So I know the 30 Day Make Your Bed Challenge doesn't start until tomorrow, but I got ahead of myself. No I did not make my bed. I hate making my bed so that is still a mess. I did clean the rest of my place though! I don't know why but I felt like my home couldn't look like a disaster in comparison to my silly bed. So, alas! my place is spotless (we'll pretend I didn't create a dinner disaster in my kitchen). I gotta say, I'm pumped to get into better homekeeping habits! It's not to late to jump on board, folks!!

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

30 Day Make Your Bed Challenge

It has been a long time since I've taken a moment to write. I took a summer hiatus of sorts (worth it). But I'm back and I'll be spending the next 30 days blogging (mostly) about this new 30 day challenge! I never make my bed. Ever. Not even after I wash the sheets or if company may see our room. After reading Adventure in Mommyhood's blog about this challenge, I knew it was something I wanted to do. She has tons of interesting facts and tidbits on what making your bed in the morning can do for your overall health and well being. Take a moment to check it out and sign up if this is something you're interested in. I should take a picture of my bed, but I just washed sheets, so I'll take one in the morning so you can see how it is all the time. Happy bed making!!

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

I'll Take Some Jesus With My Coffee Please!

I feel like I've been learning a lot about myself lately and the type of person I want to be. It seems like every time I go through a "trying" situation, I discover myself more. Having PPD has really forced me to explore my emotions and my thoughts. I've been forced to take a deeper look at who I am and who I want to be. The answer is the same as it's always been and always will be, only this time I'm taking more proactive steps to become who I'm meant to be.

I want to be more like Jesus.

In my actions, in the way I speak (or don't speak), in my heart... I want to be more like Jesus. When I look back at my life the past 3 months, I don't think I've been very Christ-like. I also haven't been completely "worldly" either, I just haven't been the reflection of my Savior like I should be, like I desire to be.

Life with a new baby is such a hard thing to navigate. There are so many aspects to raising a child, nurturing a marriage and being a typhoon of emotions. I never meant to put God on the back burner, but that's where He is and I need to change that. Risto wakes at 7-730 every morning. We eat breakfast together at 8 and it's nap time around 830. That hour long window of freedom is now dedicated to the Lord. Be it through prayer, listening to worship music, reflecting or reading my bible, I choose to spend it with my King.

Being a proper reflection of Jesus is so important. Our family can not thrive if Christ is not at the center where He belongs. If we want Risto to choose Christ for himself, we have to be the example that sets a positive influence now. For the goodness of my soul and my families, I'm taking my coffee with a little bit of Jesus

Saturday, July 2, 2011

Oh Sweet Summer Sun

I haven't been posting much lately. Probably because I don't have much worth writing about. Life is just as ordinary as it's always been. I'm hoping to change that now that summertime has finally decided to grace the beautiful PNW with it's presence! I'm taking my sweet froggy monster on more mommy and me adventures. He's decided he hates naps, so I may as well make the best of it with outings, right? Here's a few of my favorite pictures from the past 2 days. Enjoy them and soak in the adorable vision that is my son.

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Thursday, June 30, 2011

Empowerment

So there's a huge "drama" happening in the breast feeding world surrounded by a mother who was quite inappropriately and illegally harassed on a public bus for doing what her body was made to do. Feed her baby. It's stuff like this that not only makes my blood boil, but it also puts a fear in me. Fear of being ostracized for my personal decision to breast feed my son.

I've said it before that I hate being made to feel like a leper for doing what comes natural to me. I've been told my various people that I should be more modest, I've been asked to go "do that" in my car and plenty of other things. It makes me feel insecure about doing whats best for my son. Formula feeding mothers aren't made to cover up, why should I?

Originally my desire to cover up stemmed from wanting to protect others, not wanting to offend anyone. The more I think about it, the more I find that there is nothing offensive about what I'm doing. Human milk comes from the same body part as cow milk. A teat. No one runs in fear of a baby calf suckling on their mothers nips, why are mine so offensive?

Someone said something on my birth board that I loved. Her arguments for nursing freely were very well written. I hope she doesn't mind, but I'm quoting her here.

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I can't help it that other people are uncomfortable with a nursing mother. I can't cater to the world, unfortunately. Instead, I have to make decisions based on what works for me and my family. My children absolutely come before some stranger's discomfort with breastfeeding....And please, people need to stop using the excuse that they're uncomfortable seeing an exposed breast. That's absolutely untrue. People are uncomfortable with what the breast is being used for. I highly doubt those same people avoid going to the beach or watching R-rated movies. Maybe some do, but the vast majority don't. Just call it as it is: you don't like the IDEA of a child sucking on its mother's breast. That's what makes you uncomfortable. I show WAY less skin while nursing than the average woman just walking down the street in clothing accepted by our society."

I could not possible agree with her statements more. I hate using a cover and especially now that summer time is rolling around, people will have to get used to the idea of me nursing freely. I'm not going to suffocate my son under a hot stuffy cover for the "comfort" of others. His comfort comes first and quite frankly, I wouldn't eat under a blacked out blanket, so why should he? Of course I'll still cover up around my dad and brother (especially around my poor brother) but anyone else will just have to turn away. No I will not feed my son in the bathroom. Do you eat your food in the can? Didn't think so. Feed him in my car? You go eat in your car if you find it so comfortable to do so. Cover up? NO! I'm feeling empowered and I'm not going to let anyone slow me down

Thursday, June 23, 2011

6 Months Down

I've always aspired to be an amazing wife and mother. While my siblings were making life plans and dreaming about what they could do for themselves, I was waiting for the day I could stay home, cook, clean and love my family. I'm 6 months into life as a new mom and realizing my dream is a little different when it's real life.

I love my little man and I love his father too, but it's harder then I expected. I just knew my home would be spotless, dinners would be 5 star and Risto and I would be dressed to the 9's (me in pearls and a dress of course) when Trevor burst through the door with a "Honey, I'm home!". Oh 50's television, how you've let me down.

**NEWS FLASH**

That isn't real life! Real life is clothes covered in spit up and Mum Mum crackers. Real life is telling your spouse that tonight's a 'fend for yourself' kinda night. Real life is late nights and early mornings, days without a shower and only doing laundry to find that shirt you've been missing for over a week.

Of course I wish things were cleaner and more organized, but the reality is my 50's inspired dream didn't come in the form of a cute 1 story house with a white picket fence. It came in a 1 bedroom apartment and very little space. I also wish I didn't have PPD/PPA, but I have those too and I'm doing my best to work through them. A huge realization (and major step forward as far as PPD is concerned) is a simple reminder I've been giving myself daily.

I asked for this.

This messy little apartment, the grubby little hands that tug on my legs all day and a husband that comes home to it all happy as a clam (can you believe it?). I wanted this. And I couldn't be happier. Sleepless nights are forcing me to start asking for help, something I've always had a hard time with. PPD is making me feel out of control and forcing me to let go. Risto has shown me how to slow down and enjoy simple things. The kitchen can wait when your child all of a sudden decides blowing raspberries is the best thing ever. Laundry? Sorry, but now he's learning to scoot and chasing him around is more fun anyhow! Showers?? Well, I do miss those, but you get the idea. I'm finding myself growing up in this process of Motherhood and I'm happy to have this crazy little life that only belongs to me.

Saturday, June 11, 2011

Ergo, Baby Legs and Cleansers! OH MY!!!

Alright folks, it's that time again. That's right! Time for me to post about the things I love! This week, I'm really excited to share a few brand new discoveries with you.

First up ~ Baby Legs by Chloe Belle's Boutique.
I am obsessed with these Baby Legs!! They fit Risto's legs very well and don't leave the same angry red indent that other brands leave behind. Plus they're freaking cute and the creator of CBB is a sweet heart and her daughter is beautiful! Support her by clicking on that link and purchasing some goods! Her prices are great, btw ;)

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Next up ~ What Ever by Better Life.
Best. Cleaner. Ever. It's natural and totally safe and requires no rinsing! I was able to clean our bathtub without having to worry about harsh chemicals choking up our air or leaving a residue on our surfaces. So safe, you can spray it directly into a baby's mouth!(that is totally not true btw, but you get the point).

And finally ~ Ergo Baby Carrier
I've been shopping around for baby carriers for a solid 3 months trying to find what would work best for my family and our needs. I had settled on a Baby Hawk (still a great product, btw) but never got around to actually ordering one. I went to my favorite store Cotton Babies and tried one on. Risto loved it, I loved it and even Trevor has agreed to "wear" Risto (on his back, but hey, I'll take it!). It's super comfortable, easy to use and you can get TONS of accessories to go with it. I nursed Risto in it today while shopping at the mall and it was way easier then I would have thought, plus I was still able to use 2 hands to shop. Awesome. Get one.

Friday, June 3, 2011

A Discovery Of Sorts

I do not excel at anything

Some of you may be thinking, yeah right.. everyone has something they're superb at. Every one has something to share with the world. I really don't. I'm not fishing for compliments or anything, it's just I never really realized how underwhelming I am as a person until I've witnessed what others are capable of. Be it smarts, fashion, cooking or baking... managing bills or time, organization.. they are capable of not only doing those things, but doing them exceedingly well.

I really am not good at anything

I've gone nearly 25 years being generally mediocre at life, so this truly isn't anything new, it's just that I'm seeing it through fresh eyes. In an attempt to find something, nay ANYTHING, I could be good at, I'm challenging myself. I'll take classes, read books or just do good old fashion trial and error, but I am determined to find something that I can do and do well. So one day I can stand in a crowd and know that there really is something special or interesting about me. A reason to get to know me better.

Let's see.. I'm a decent singer, I can hold my own in the kitchen but nothing to spectacular because I'm impatient, I know how to cruise on a long board. Those are the 3 things that stand out in my mind, so I suppose I'll start there. Maybe I'll try my hand at a fancy meal or re-train my vocals to start singing again. Buying a long board would just be fun, so I may do that anyways, despite the fact that this venture is more about me discovering my hidden talents and charm.

to be continued readers. to be continued

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Walk For Life

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I'm doing a Walk For Life Benefit for Options 360 - A pregnancy research center. If you're reading this, take time to check out my wall and consider donating. Here is some personal testimony for you from someone with experience volunteering with Options 360!

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I volunteered as a Client Advocate (met & talked with the girls/women who came in for a pregnancy test & helped them with the decisions they had to make.) They are definitely focused on saving li...ves & supporting women in scary & stressful situations. They also offer FREE pregnancy tests, ultrasounds & education classes for new mama's. Their Orchards office is actually right next door to Planned Parenthood (they share a wall)...lots of women who are going to PP see the "FREE Pregnancy Test" hanging in the Options 360 window, so they go to Options 360 instead & (very often) they decide to have their baby that they were just planning on aborting...I could go on and on...;))) But yes...it's an organization worth supporting!!!! :) :)" - Brooke Salmi


If something like this isn't your cup of tea, check out my previous post about donating to an orphanage in Ethiopia!

Donations Central

Did you know I've been to Africa? I have. It was the hardest most rewarding experience of my life. I left a chunk of my heart there.

We have friends who are currently in the adoption process of a little Ethiopian boy (he's flipping gorgeous). Their entire process to bring him to his forever home is such an inspiration to anyone who is blessed enough to hear it. Their hearts are filled with patience, faith and hope. A beautiful baby boy is their reward, and he'll be blessed to have amazing Christ centered parents who fought their tush(es) off to get him here.

Their journey in bringing him home goes far beyond flying to another country and picking up their son. They refuse to turn a blind eye to some of the living conditions for orphaned children in Ethiopia. Among other things, they are trying to gather what they can to bring to a specific orphanage in the area where they will be picking up their son. This is no small feat. This orphanage is in dire need of support for their children. When I read the blog post describing the need and conditions, I balled my eyes out. Thinking about it makes me cry.

How often do we take for granted the basic necessities of life? I don't give a second thought to picking up a new toy or new clothes for my son. We're blessed enough to be able to do so, but in that blessing is our responsibility to give as well. I'm calling on anyone who reads this to donate to this orphanage. ANYTHING you can give would be a tremendous blessing to these children. They are dying unnecessarily and we have the power to do something. Anything.

I'm posting a link to the particular blog so you can see for yourself that the need is there. The physical condition of the children is heartbreaking. For those of you can't look at images of obviously sick children, I'll post a list of the needs here.

Please please please contact me if you'd like to give in anyway shape or form. I'm willing to help pay for any shipping rates for those of you in other states/parts of my state.



I can be contacted at violette.jasmine@gmail.com

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Things the orphanage needs: THIS LIST HAS BEEN UPDATED
infant clothing
cloth diapers (preferably with plastic outer lining)
Crocs to give to the kids in Korah (the dump).
infant meds (ibuprofen and tylenol, etc)
thermometers
diaper rash cream


Sunday, May 15, 2011

I love Cotton Babies

Well that isn't a secret since I've blogged about how much I love them before, but they're hosting the cutest contest! All you have to do is write a little comment about why you're happy your sweet little babies were born! Easy Peasy, right?!?!? The grand prizes are fun and since there's a store in our area, it's worth entering. I know not all of you are fluff obsessed like I am, but they sell TONS of other goodies! Strollers, car seats, natural cleaners, TOYS and the softest clothes you'll ever put on your babe.

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Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Why I Parent With My Heart


"I absolutely refuse to have a co dependent baby."

It's still hard for me to believe those words actually came out of my mouth! When I was pregnant with Risto I would say things like that all the time. Risto was destined to be a baby that slept through the night in his own bed in his own room at whatever costs. He would know how to self soothe. He would be independent. Apparently I was having a plastic doll and not a real baby.

For some parents, it works to do these things and I don't judge those parents in the slightest. It just wasn't for us, wasn't for our family. To understand how I reached my initial decision for an independent baby and how we ultimately decided on attachment parenting, you need a little back story.

The year before I had Risto I lost a pregnancy after 18 weeks. I had a Partial Molar Pregnancy that for various reasons, went undiagnosed. I had fully planned on doing a natural home water birth. I was determined to do everything parenting related naturally. Those plans were taken from me in a very traumatic experience. When I got pregnant with my darling froggy monster I was doing everything by the doctors orders. I knew I could trust him because he took such great care of me during and after my Molar. Instead of doing things naturally, I was doing everything by the book (well most everything). I kicked my birth plan in the butt and followed my Docs. lead. I ended up with a c.section and although it's not what I wanted it really and truly was the right decision for Risto's safety, and he will always come first.

I believe that my initial parenting style was defined by my loss and my fear of the natural path. I did a 180 after that experience and have since 180'd back and a major part in that switch stemmed from my c.section. I know, crazy right?? It really did!! We were 100% well on our way to have our sweet little man circumcised and honestly I thank God for our decision to opt for a c.sect. It saved my sons little guy from unnecessary cosmetic surgery. It was a decision I left up to my husband who quickly decided after witnessing my c.sect that there was NO WAY he was cutting a part our son. We asked his pedi about it who agreed that it was strictly cosmetic and unnecessary., for us.

*** I want to be very clear that we respect the decisions that others have made in this particular area. I understand a lot of people do it for religious reason, which I do respect. It is our personal religious belief that the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ frees us from having to put our son through this procedure***

I had no idea that a decision like that was going to spark this interest in me to parent more naturally. I started researching more natural parenting styles and discovered that a lot of aspects of attachment parenting were exactly how I wanted to raise Risto. I went from trying to teach him to self soothe through CIO (a decision I regret, we spent 1 day.. 2 nap times trying to do this and I cried my eyes out both times, scooped up my son, prayed about it and ditched that idea) to co-sleeping. I nurse my son to sleep for naps and bedtime. I wear him on outings. I cuddle him when he cries and whisper that it's alright to be frustrated.

I can't imagine parenting him any other way. A lot of people think I'm nuts, and I'm becoming okay with that. What works for us won't work for others. Risto is my natural little hippie baby and I wouldn't have it any other way.



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Monday, May 9, 2011

You Cant Focus On The Negative...

.... Because you have so much to be positive about!

Shout out to my darling friend Kait (who's last name I'll spare since I didn't get her permission, but trust me, it's amazing). I was all ready to go "woe is me" in this post about never being able to have my natural home birth, blah, blah, blah, when she hit me with the quote of the century.


"You can't focus on the negative because you have so much to be positive about"

Thanks to my darling friend for her words of wisdom. I will no longer be going woe is me in this joint.





Equipping and Supporting My Spouse

I've seen far to often where Dad's aren't very hands on with their babies. This isn't a bad thing to me, so I hope no one gets offended. Sometimes it's just traditional marriage roles (which is how my household is run), sometimes it's lack of interest (I've never seen this happen in any relationships I know of, but I am aware that the problem exists.) but more often I'm realizing is because our husbands aren't adequately equipped to BE hands on.

For those of us that are Stay At Home Mom's (SAHM) I think we sometimes forget (at least I do) that we know our babes better then our spouses! I've tried my hardest to make Trevor feel like an equal parent, because he is, but when it comes right down to it, he doesn't know Risto as well as I do. That isn't a bad thing, I had to learn about Risto just the same as Trevor, but the main difference is the amount of time I have to do so. I spend all day with Risto. Trevor comes home from work between 430-6 and Risto is asleep for the night by 8, that doesn't leave Trevor much time to interact with Risto.

I'm blessed to have a husband who really desires to play an active role in his son's life. I know not all men are like this and it makes me thankful, but I had to ask myself recently, am I giving my husband the tools he needs to be confident as an equal parent? I thought that I was. I've always tried to encourage Trevor as best I can. I ask his opinions, I ask him to pick out outfits, I ask him to take over for bedtime routine some nights... literally anything I can think of. I thought I was doing a great job until a few nights ago.

"I feel like you're better at doing these things because you read so many articles and mommy blogs and you're with him all day".

Those words crushed my heart. In everything I've been trying to do to make my husband feel equipped and equal, I had no idea all the time I spend reading and researching was putting a mountain in the path of HIS parenting.

I have to take into consideration his thoughts, WITHOUT spouting off facts from different articles or opinions from different blogs. I feel like an idiot!!! Here I am, blessed beyond belief to have such a great man as my son's father and I'm goofing up his confidence as a parent! AND to top it all off, I've actually fussed at him before for not being better about making decisions in regards to Risto. HELLO?!?!!? I'm getting in my own way AND Trevor's way! What a nerd!!

Ladies, if this is you too, take the time to ask your spouse how you can better equip and support them in their journey as fathers!

Trevor, I love you. I know I've apologized to you in person, but I'm saying it here too. I'm sorry! Thank you for being patient with me and I promise we're on this parenting trip together! I'm so very thankful to have you in our lives. You're the best father to our sweet little man.I love you. Risto loves you.

Sunday, May 8, 2011

You Are My Sunshine




This picture was taking a few days ago when we were blessed with 70 degree weather. This baby is the highlight of my life, the sunshine to my soul. This being my first Mothers Day, I realized everything I wanted was staring me in the face with sparkling brown eyes and a drool stained chin. God really gave me the hook up with this little guy!

Happy Mothers Day Mama's!

Monday, May 2, 2011

Tackling The Laundry Monster

Well I did it. I defeated the 4 foot tall monster, slowly growing in height and width, in the corner of my tiny 1 bedroom apartment. How you ask? I decided last night to start being a better SAHM. My home is my job (along with caring for my sweet guys) and I need to start giving to 100%. This is sparking new interest in cleaning routines for me. Laundry has oddly enough been the easiest to figure out. Here's my trick.... wait for it....

After I fill the basket with 1 clean load of laundry, I fold/hang those clothes! Now take a deep breath, I know that sounds daunting and frightening and every other word for WORK you can muster up, but it's working so well for me! All of our clothes are folded and hung up and I don't feel overwhelmed by this mass of crap in my bedroom. I love that Risto is sleeping in a clean room. I love that I don't have to worry about Trevor or myself tripping over an unnecessary mess. This first step of regaining my "perfect" housewife status makes me feel so refreshed and energized! I can't wait to figure out how to tackle other problem area's of my home. I think my favorite part of this change is that I no longer have to hand Risto to Trevor and disappear into the dark to clean. I can enjoy my husband and my son because I'm enjoying my home!

I'm off to slumber land, and it feels good knowing I don't have to start my day cleaning

Sunday, May 1, 2011

30 Day Shred and 40 Days of Devotions

It's a new month and I'm over the top motivated! I've recently lost 10 more pounds of my 60 pound total pregnancy weight gain putting me at 35 pounds lost and 25 to go, wipee!! Or does that spell wipe-e? Well either way I'm pumped. I'm in a weight loss competition with my favorite blogging mommy as the gracious hostess. The grand prize? CLOTH DIAPERS!! I am in it to win it. 30 day shred is gonna help tighten up my flabby tummy skin and CD's are a great motivator!

I'm also starting a 40 day devotion beginning tomorrow. It's designed for mommy's and I'm really excited about it. I'm currently trying to focus my time and energy on being the best house wife I can be. I'm actually making myself a "chore list" with daily things to get done around the house. I want to spend less time online and more time being a better wife and mama.

Trevor and I rent an apartment and I told him today how I feel bad that we can't rent a house because I'm a SAHM. I even asked him if he wanted me to work. He's such a sweetie and told me it's more important for me to stay home with Risto, which I love and appreciate! Then it dawned on me that my job IS my home and if I'm going to continue to be a SAHM, I need to give my role in the home 100% of my time. I'm going to spend less time online goofing off and more time being a successful homemaker! So long facebook! I'm giving myself an hour of internet a day. I'm excited. That is all

Saturday, April 30, 2011

Re-Re-Review!

Alright Friends, it's Saturday again and time for me to show you a few of my favorite things! I know I skipped last Saturday it's because my mommy brain made me forget :( But alas, it's a new week and I'm not forgetting this time!

First up; My favorite coffee place. Now a lot of you know already that with nursing Risto, I can't eat dairy. I used to frequent Starbucks because their coffee frapp was to die for, but after they changed the recipe, me not being able to eat dairy or soy I had to go in search of coffee house alternatives.

INTRODUCING....... THATCHERS!
Conveniently located across the parking lot from my favorite store Cotton Babies, Thatchers is THE BEST COFFEE in the greater Vancouver/Portland area. For real. Because of Risto's intolerance to dairy and soy, I gave up on being able to have coffee outside of my own home with lactose free creamer. Thatchers offers HEMP MILK for the lactose intolerant. I am so hooked on hemp milk. It has such a great flax taste and mixed into Thatchers hot chocolate or honey vanilla latte... I DIE (rachel zoe quote). Get down there and try it out. PS, their granola is insanely good.


Second up; Ginger Pop! It too is in the same shopping center as Thatchers and Cotton Babies (can you tell I'm done there a lot?) It's Thai food in a hip/modern style diner. It's the first time I've gone to a Thai resturaunt and been brave enough to try something other then Chicken Pad Thai, although I don't remember what I ordered (mommy brain) I do remember it was fantastic. Oh wait! I ordered Coconut noodles. Just thinking about them makes me hungry. SOOOOO GOOOOD.

So, grab a coffee before checking out Cotton Babies and if you're like me, you'll be hungry for lunch by the end of your visit so hop on over to Ginger Pop and enjoy!

Til next time!

Friday, April 29, 2011

I really don't know what to write! I've been so busy lately so it's hard to find a place to start! Between Risto being sick, me getting sick trying to deal with my PPD and discovering I also have mild PTSD (that's a post for another day) I just haven't had time to gather my thoughts into something even slightly intellectual... or readable for that matter.

Anyways, I'm starting up again tomorrow with reviews of some things I've discovered lately that I love! Look forward to it

Friday, April 22, 2011

Easter Crafts With Tiny Hands

My cute little buddy Averie came over today and we made ourselves an Easter craft. I found this cute little idea here
They were really fun and very cute and Averie had a blast! I won't post a picture of her because I didn't ask her mommy's permission, but I will post our creation! I changed the recipe and used chocolate/vanilla to make the birds nest seem more nesty.
Cheers and enjoy!




Oh yeah, and I made "brown eggs" with the left over rice krispie treats. Yum



Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Recipe Time! - EDIT




Picture Worthy?? I think so.
I'll update with a picture later, but for now I thought I'd share my favorite banana bread recipe with you all! In an effort to eat healthier I've been cooking with whole wheat, milled flax seed, apple sauce and honey. Our baked goods are still just as tasty but we're aren't loading up on empty calories in white flour, cooking oil and white sugar. I add flax so we're getting extra nutrients, plus it adds such a nice flavor to anything really! Here's the recipe

2 cups of whole wheat all purpose flour. I use Bob's Red Mill Flour
1 1/2 teaspoons baking powder
1/2 teaspoon baking soda
1/4 teaspoon of salt
1/4 teaspoon of ground cinnamon
1/8 teaspoon nutmeg (I never have any actually)
2 eggs, beaten
1 1/2 cups of mashed ripe banana's (about 5 medium)
1 cup of honey
1/2 cup of applesauce (in replacement of cooking oil)

Preheat oven to 350 and grease up that favorite quick bread pan
In a large bowl mix up your flour, baking powder/soda, cinnamon, salt and nutmeg. Make a well in the center and hold off on doing anything else

In another bowl mash up those naners and add egg, applesauce and honey. Stir until moist, it will be lumpy.
Pour that into your "well" and stir it up! I add however much flax seed as I feel like, tonight it was 2 literal spoonfuls of Hodgsons Milled Flax Seed
I'm the same way with my blueberries, I just dump in as much as I like, but I'm pretty sure I added about a cup. Trevor bought me raw almonds from Winco in bulk foods and I put those in my slap chop until they were at my desired size, mixed it up with coconut and topped off my bread.

It bakes for 55 minutes.
PS - I'm testing the raw almond/coconut top. At about 25 minutes in the oven they were a beautiful color, but I'm not sure if it'll end up burnt yet. With my second batch (this recipe makes 2 pans of bread) I'll wait until the bread has been in for 30 minutes and then add the topping.

EDIT - so some of the almond/coconut topping DID burn, but it came off very easily and left behind a beautifully crunchy coconutty topping! I baked both loaves the same, they were awesome.

I'll post pictures of both loafs! Oh, PS... don't forget to share :)

Monday, April 18, 2011

Advice from Seasoned Mama's

I've been getting some of the best advice from more seasoned Mama's then myself. Seasoned meaning woman who have 2+ children, not women who are in their 50's so if I mention your name don't be offended I called you seasoned! You mama's aren't well done just yet :)

I've been super stressed and worried and exhausted lately not knowing why Risto has been sick for so long and some of my friends and family have been telling me the sweetest or most encouraging things and I know I'm not the only Mama in the world who needs advice or pick me ups so I wanted to share.

1 - My sister in law, Jolene, took me out this evening. She is a LIFE SAVER and I need to start taking people up on their offers to watch Risto or to take me to coffee or something. I'm realizing I do need time away even if just for an hour. Anyways she told me a quote from a book she and my BIL read.

"A well rested baby rests well"
Just because Risto is exhausted doesn't mean when he hits the pillow (or mattress, he actually doesn't have a pillow cause he's a little guy still) he's getting the best sleep. His needs have changed recently and I need to change his schedule accordingly.

2 - My friend Noelle has been so encouraging lately and I'm so thankful to have her in my life! She's offered more then once to take my sweet little Risto for an hour or so even though she has a little one 5 weeks younger then Risto. I should take her up on that and afterward I can ask her if she's glad she didn't have twins! One of my favorite things she said, and I'm gonna start doing this, is simple.

All Mama's need a break at some point, even if just for an hour. It's important for our sanity.
This is loosely translated, but she's so right! We do need time away. I came back from my outing with my SIL feeling SO refreshed! I'm ready to take on the week. I never knew how important an hour away from home could be. I'm going to start saying yes more to peoples offers to watch him or to hang out.

3 - My friend Jenna has just the sweetest heart. She's sending me a book called Battlefield Of The Mind by Joyce Meyers. With my struggle to find normal emotions and having PPD she's been so encouraging with her words and her prayers over me. She's been amazingly supportive of my decision to seek God with my PPD and treating it naturally. She's encouraged me so much through it and I'm so thankful for her!

I know there's more, I've had so many supportive people but my exhaustion is creeping up on me and a cup of tea, a bubble bath and my bed sound like just the ticket! Thank you ladies. You all know who you are and if you think you MIGHT be one, you are! I love you women so much and I'm so thankful to have so many seasoned Mama's to turn to when my world seems upside down

Sunday, April 17, 2011

My Sweet Risto Baby

Just got done reading Risto's birth story. It took so much to get him here, but I couldn't be happier.



GIVEAWAYS!!

So I'm jumping on the giveaway band wagon!! I'm in the works with someone who's rather popular in my circle and she makes the cutest things. Can't give it away yet because she hasn't accepted (or probably even read) my offer yet, but be excited!! In the mean time if you're following this blog go LIKE my FB "fan" page so you can get updates on giveaways, not just from me but from some of my favorite products! Anyways, my amazing husband is back from his weekend away and I miss him, so a cuddle sesh. is in order!


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Saturday, April 16, 2011

Review Board


So I decided to start writing "reviews" of things I've stumbled upon lately! This is for anyone who's interested in some of the things I'm doing or finding, to help give others an idea of products I love so you can check them out yourself. I'll do this every Saturday, so keep an eye out for these updates. It'll include things like my new favorite hot spots, products and companies.
Today I'll be reviewing Flip Diaper Systems and Gnon a by product from the creators of Sophie The Giraffe.

Can I just say, I LOVE cloth diapering! I'm actually pretty bummed out I didn't do this as soon as Risto was born, but circumstances didn't allow us to take the plunge. Now that we're ready, I've found a great diaper in Flip! It's a product from my new favorite store Cotton Babies and I actually found out that this along with bumGenius and Econobum are actually made by Cotton Babies and have won multiple awards. If you're interested in cloth diapering, Cotton Babies is a great place to start. The women in store are very knowledgeable plus with a weighted "baby" you can get a feel for what the diaper will look and feel like on your little one. I couldn't be happier with our decision to put Risto in cloth and he loves it as well! And for those of you thinking you couldn't hand the occasional poopy mess, it's actually a lot easier to handle then a sposie!


Now onto Risto's new favorite buddy, Gnon! Gnon is a great little chewy toy made from natural rubber and vegetable based dye so it's completely safe for teething babies to gnaw on. Gnon is a lot more squeaky then his big sis Sophie the Giraffe so if you don't like noisey toys (or you have a dog that would steal this little guy from baby), I'd stick with the traditional Sophie. If you have a kid like mine who is attracted like a magnet to obnoxious things, Gnon is the way to go. The way Risto lights up and laughs, I don't even mind! Check out these products!

Flip Diapers
http://www.facebook.com/#!/pages/Cotton-Babies-Vancouver-WA-store/153342188044171


Gnon Chew Toy
http://www.sophiegiraffeusa.com/chan-pie-gnon.html

Thursday, April 14, 2011

No More Sposies!!


Well we did it! Or almost it. We bought a package of the flip diaper system today at a great little shop called Cotton Babies. I've been in once before to talk about cloth diapering and getting started and I just fell in love with this product. The great thing about Cotton Babies is they have a weighted doll for you to play around with, so we were able to "cloth" a "baby". LOVE!!

I was also able to get Trevor to try on a Baby Hawk Mei Tai carrier (which he loved) and we are well on our way to having yet another baby carrier! I feel so accomplished. No more regrets on chickening out. NO MORE SPOSIES!!!!

Also BTW, everyone go check out Ginger Pop off of highway 14. It's AMAZING Thai food. The coconut noodles... AMAZE!


Cotton Babies Facebook Page
http://www.facebook.com/#!/pages/Cotton-Babies-Vancouver-WA-store/153342188044171

Flip Cloth Diaper Website
http://flipdiapers.com/

Baby Hawk Website
http://www.babyhawk.com/


Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Regrets

This is my beautiful son, Risto. I love him with every fiber of my being and I honestly believe no one can understand God's true love for us unless you've become a parent. This baby is a major part of my world. I'm blessed, but I can't quite get past my feelings of regret.

That's a bit misleading. I don't regret having him at all. I regret not putting him in cloth diapers! I never intended to put Risto in sposies. His sweet little tush was designed for clothies! I originally had Trevor all on board for cloth but when we didn't get any at my baby shower (not complaining, we were VERY blessed) we had to put those plans on hold. I was so disappointed to have to put him in sposies, but what are you gonna do.

Fast forward to tax season. We had decided to use some of our taxes (back in December) to buy up his supply of cloth. Well by now I think we're both so used to sposies that it's hard for Trevor to want to make the switch! I'm all on board, ready to go! I'm home all day most days anyways and what is a few extra loads of laundry?? Think of the money we'll save!!!

Anyways, I'm just feeling a little disappointed we didn't take the plunge, but we are taking a cloth 101 class next wednesday night and I'm hoping to change Trevor's mind! A great resource if you're interested is Cotton Babies. They have amazing women who work there that can answer any questions you have, plus the shop is super cute!

http://www.facebook.com/pages/Cotton-Babies-Vancouver-WA-store/153342188044171

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Re-discovering me

In an effort to curb my PPD naturally, I've started a journey to re discover ME! I was advised to take each day one at a time. To start fresh and forget about my worries, fears, doubts or anything else negative from the previous day. I've had to remind myself of that several times today already, but it's working. I do feel better, more energetic and happier. Even if just for today. It's encouraging to know that I can feel like my old self! I've recently become real big on healthy baking. Trevor and I love pastries so much but they have so many empty calories, sugar in amounts no one person should consume with ingredients most people can't pronounce. I'm learning new ways to bake our favorite treats in a way that wont be damaging to our bodies. Another reason I'm doing this is because Risto deserves a healthy family and to have a good shot at making healthy life choices. We're his biggest influence, you know. I've started replacing oils with applesauce and I've traded in that pesky white flour for whole wheat. Eggs? Who needs them! 1 TBS of Flax Seed mixed with 3 TBS of water has just as much protien as an egg(among other things). What do I do about sugar you ask? Honey! I'd love to use Agave Nector, but I'm a little intimidated. Now when I eat a blueberry muffin, I don't worry about the empty calories. I can eat slice after slice of banana bread knowing that everything inside is fresh and natural. The way God intended our food to be! Anyways, in doing this I think I've decided to start selling my yummy baked treats for others who are wanting to make healthier decisions, but can't seem to find the time or energy to do so. I'm currently in LOVE with baking healthy treats for my cute little family, so why not share the love! So far I've only done muffins, cookies and breads, but I'm going to start doing danishes as well, opting for fresh organic fruits instead of jarred over processed fruits on steroids. No unncessary syrups here. Oh did I mention I don't use milk either? I use Rice milk. And if I can find it I'll use Hemp milk which is so chalk full of nutrients, you'll feel quilty if you don't use it in all of your recipes. Posting some links to my favorite things, including a couple resources for dealing with PPD. If you'd like me to bake you some healthy treats, email me! violette.jasmine@gmail.com www.postpartum.net www.livingharvest.com

Scout and Belly Buttons

Scout's bedtime music has been a recent life saver in my home. If you have a baby that's hard to put to sleep right now, take out your Scout or Violet dolls, turn on the bed time music (5 minutes does the trick in our house) and enjoy the shows you've had on your dvr for weeks!

http://www.target.com/LeapFrog-My-Puppy-Pal-Scout/dp/B001W30D2O

Hope the link works, but it's worth every penny of that $15.

Also, I've recently decided that a babies belly button is the black hole of their entire body. I was in a panic to see my son's belly was BLACK only to find the tummy I thought I cleaned so well had gathered enough lint to knit myself a sweater. Gross

I'll spare you a picture of the the things I found in Risto's sweet little tummy, just now that it ain't pretty!

Monday, April 11, 2011

This Is It


Side note; Look how cute my baby is










No I'm not watching the Micheal Jackson movie. Quick off topic though, did anyone else find it terribly counterproductive that he did a whole concert mostly about being helpful to the environment and had millions of dollars of pyrotechnics? I sure did.

What this is really about is me calling my doctor in the morning. My PPD symptoms are getting worse and although I'm still trying to handle this naturally, I'm starting to realize I need to at least get my foot in the door in case I need something more. This gives me anxiety. Talking (or writing) about this. I still have a slight fear that someone will call CPS and Risto would be taken away from me. Ugh.... this is hard!

I'm realizing that Risto isn't currently getting the mommy he deserves and I miss being the mommy I was before I started feeling "down". Prayers for me would be awesome. I need peace about the possibility of being put on medicine.



Sunday, April 10, 2011

Adventures In Breastfeeding

Let me just say, I love breastfeeding. I wouldn't trade that bonding experience with Risto for anything in the world. I love that when nothing else soothes him, my milk can soothe him. I love how he tries to "eat" my shirt randomly through the day. I love when he places his tiny little hand on my boob and rubs my side with his other tiny little hand. I love that he wants to hold my hand while nursing and I love that I can still kiss the top of his head.

You'd think after 4 months I'd be a nursing pro but we're always learning together what our separate nursing needs are. I've heard of and seen pictures of women nursing their babies while laying down, and quite frankly I thought it looked like a bit of a nightmare! I'm terribly uncoordinated nursing Risto on the bobby pillow without trying to toss in laying down! And don't even get me started on the nursing cover, that is currently QUITE the pain in the tush.

I've been reading a blog I LOVE called The Sparkle Mama (heres a link to her FB page - http://www.facebook.com/thesparklemama). I love how brave she is to actually post pictures of her nursing her beautiful little girl and it inspired me to try nursing Risto at night while we were both laying down. It was such a great experience. Risto loved it. I loved it. I was able to stay partially asleep and so was R. I also noticed he didn't suck down nearly as much air as he usually does. It was nice to not have to pick him him up and twirl him around to nurse on the other side and all the picking up and moving around. It was so natural and easy!

Anyways, be brave and bold ladies and don't be afraid to try new things with your little ones no matter how strange or uncomfortable or awkward you think it may be!

Saturday, April 9, 2011

I haven't been posting often lately, mostly because I'm busy. Busy trying to pretend like I don't have PPD. I keep saying I have baby blues, but in all reality I am definitely experiencing post partum (sp?) depression. I don't want to do anything about it because I don't feel unattached from Risto... totally. I more just want to cuddle him, nurse him and nap with him, but if I'm being honest with myself, I'm also kind of ignoring him a bit too.

Don't go calling CPS (which is another reason I'm not doing anything about it, I'm scared someone will take him). He's a very independant little guy. He loves playing and exploring his little world, but sometimes I have a hard time tearing myself from tv or all the blogs I like to read to interact with him. This is hard. I feel like anyone reading this is going to misunderstand and think he's being abused or ignored or left alone, which isn't the case at all. I play with him a lot. We sing and read together. We copy each others faces and take tubs together. We partially co sleep and I hold his hand and hum him worship songs while he nurses.

I'm more just lacking in motivation to get off my tush and do things. My house is a disaster. Dishes are piled high, my bathroom could use a good clean and there is a basket of laundry in the hallway of my one bedroom apartment for about 3 weeks now.

I know I'll figure it out soon. I got some great tips to try and curb this naturally on my own, so hopefully Monday will be a fresh start and I can slowly start to get things back together. In all honesty, I'm not sure I would have had the courage to write this if it weren't for a friend who recently spoke about her own issues with PPD. I wont call her out, but I appreciate (and needed) to hear that I'm not alone in this. I guess that's part of why I'm writing it out here, but I'm hoping no one actually reads this.

That's kind of it

Thursday, April 7, 2011

Water Blessings

There is no doubt in my mind I have a water baby. He loves the tub and aside from that, I often put his hands or feet in running water to soothe him when he's upset. I didn't realize how much he loved whatever until I bathed with him today. I know, dangerous, right? I debated writing about this because I didn't want to get any "bad" mama flack for putting my 4 month old in a tub filled with water, but this experience with him was to amazing and special. I have to write it out.



If I drove to the coast right now and threw Risto into the raging ocean waters ( I promise I wont), he'd survive better then I ever could. I don't think I've ever enjoyed water so much in my life. But water with Risto is such a blessing. I originally had him on his back because I didn't want his face to close to swallowing bath water, as he undoubtedly peed in there numerous times. He wasn't having it. He rolled (almost out of my arms) onto his tummy and started kicking like his life, literally, depending on it. Arms going, feet going and his floppy little boy business swinging with the waves. I smile thinking of it.

Now this wasn't a 100% positive experience. No not because of all the baby urine, but because stupid me put bubbles in the bath so ever major swim move was greeted with a happy bubble chin faced little boy. He's probably the only baby I know of who doesn't mind water in his face and eyes. He thrives off it. Ok... I may have fibbed a bit here, there was a TINY bit of bubbles that got in his mouth, but he didn't seem to mind (terribly).

I gotta admit my arm and back hurt from the experience, but man was the work worth it! If you're brave enough, take a tub with your water baby. I did run a poop risk since he hadn't gone for his afternoon expulsion yet, so take that into consideration and enjoy!

Thanks Lord for my sweet water baby

Thursday, March 31, 2011

Party Of 5

Would it be crazy if I threw myself a party for losing 5 pounds? Cause I wanna!! 5 pounds in two weeks is great, especially considering the only excersize I've managed to squeeze in are a handful of long walks. Eating better has got to be doing this body good and of course the age old rule of thumb; nurse baby.. weight drops.

I also started working again! Just two days a week for four hours in the morning. One of the sweetest little 3 year olds I know! And she's gonna keep me active, I'm sure. I'm excited to take her and Risto to the park and to play at the mall (special request by my new little playmate). It was a lot of fun having her around on Monday and I'm looking forward to hanging out with her tomorrow too.

The final piece to this weight loss puzzle is my darling little boy, who insists on never going to bed before 930, thus keeping me on my toys with silly faces, diaper changes and lifting weights, aka his 14.5 pound body. Daddy is taking a turn entertaining my little turkey so I can write this, so excuse the lack of detail or luster for that matter.

Started spring cleaning today. That's a joke you can look forward to seeing in a future post. I'm really bad at household chores. I love doing them when I feel like, but I hate feeling obligated to do it. UGH

Friday, March 25, 2011

Decisions, Decisions

Anyone who knows me well enough, knows I have a serious obsession with Karen Kinsbury's books. I love the way she writes out beautiful tales of faith, hope and love. God has given her a gift that, unfortunately for me, gets kinda spendy. I'm reading the second book in the Sunrise series called Summer. One of the subjects of the book is going through a hard pregnancy that will undoubtedly end in the death of her child sometime almost immediately after birth.

I've lost a pregnancy. Lost the feeling of what life would be like with a child. I lost a bit of myself in the process, but I also found a part of God I never would have understood without going through that struggle. Almost exactly a year later, I got pregnant with my sweet darling Risto James. Sometimes I wonder what life would be like if baby number 1 ever had a chance to live. Would Risto still be here now? Or would he be an after thought still a year or 2 away from existence? Or would I be one of those women who has their children back to back? Risto would be a little brother... a life long friend to what would have been my firstborn.

A few months back God put a desire in my heart. Something I'm not only terribly unqualified to do, but it would also stretch the limits far beyond my comfort zone and cause me to do the one thing that terrifies me. Lead. I've been praying with all my might and I think time is winding down for a decision, this book only serving as a reminder for what He is surely calling me to.

Apart of the reason I'm writing this is to ask anyone who bothers to read these things for prayer. Come alongside me as brothers and sisters serving the same God and ask Him for clarity, strength and courage. The second reason is because I know if I don't announce it, it'll take me longer to finally step out on faith and start the process.

I want to start a support group for women who have lost pregnancies. Aside from Trevor, I really didn't have anyone I could turn to when I lost our first baby. I felt like I was a burden to everyone around me and aside from the fact that I lost my mind for awhile, I know I was quite a lot to deal with.

We're a community of believers for a reason. So we can support each other. Lend a shoulder to cry on at sometimes and at others offer an ear to listen or a gentle tone to remind our spiritual siblings of God's promises for us. This is a big deal for me. It would require me talking about what I went through and admitting something to myself that I'm still not ready to admit. I'm not admitting it here either, but one day soon I'll have to admit it to myself so I can successfully help others.

At the beginning of the year I prayed that God would help me give more of myself. That He would show me where He needs me and that I would follow without hesitation. I'm hesitating a little, but only because I think something like this deserves my whole heart and all of my attention (well as much as I can spare with a baby and husband). Please help support me in this by praying for me.

I'm ready to move for the One I love.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

So I Bought A Scale

I wake up every morning singing Eye Of The Tiger. That's how determined I am to lose some weight. I've figured out that losing 2 pounds a week for 8-10 pounds a month (depending on how many weeks, obviously) is a great goal. I also decided that losing 40 pounds would put me at the very lowest weight I can weigh for my height, so I'm pushing for 25-30 pounds instead. I have 6 pairs of six 10 jeans I'm dying to get back into (not to mention all of my pants, skirts and shorts!).

We've been eating a lot more fresh veggies, whole grains... I even made brown rice with dinner (which was amazing btw). Trevor went with Risto and I on a nice long walk in this warm weather we had today. My workouts are going ok, I'm doing what I can when I can, my main focus is on eating right for now and building up endurance, so long walks are key for me at this point. Anyways, on to the good stuff.

I lost 2.5 pounds last week!! I'm so very proud of myself. Right after Risto was born I lost 20 pounds but I've been stuck at 185 for 2.5 months so when I stepped on my newly purchased digital scale and say 182.5, I was beyond thrilled. I'm setting realistic goals for myself and I'm meeting them and that's something I'm proud of. Healthier living is not just for me, but so I'm around a long time to enjoy the wonderful guys God has put in my life.

I have a lot to look forward to already, and PS, my belly is looking smaller! Even Trevor noticed, and he wasn't faking either :)

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Back to Normal

This morning I had one of the best feelings, as a wife, that I've had in quite a while. Went to make a big yummy breakfast and had to hand wash most of my pans/cooking/baking utensils. It was an amazing feeling. Here I am, entertaining my son on the floor, loading a dishwasher then hand washing some things then chopping, stirring, baking and seasoning... all while chatting with my froggy monster (who was happily playing on his floor mat). As far as household tasks are concerned, I'm feeling like my old self.

I haven't had time to write because I've been busy getting back into my new normal. Cooking, cleaning, laundry and now baby. I know this is mega repetitive, but I FEEL GREAT! My home is clean, I have 3 different kind of left overs in the fridge (which means I get a break from making at least one meal today).

The other thing taking up my writing time? My new found love for healthy recipes! I just recently discovered that applesauce can replace veggie oil in recipes and my new bff, flax, can be put literally in anything. I'm already planning Risto's first birthday party (crazy, right.. it's like 8 months away) and I'm very excited to find someone capable of making a whole wheat chocolate cake, complete with applesauce instead of oil and flax in replace of eggs! Theme is in the works, location is TBD and I have a feeling my 5 year wedding anniversary may be taking a financial back seat to this party. Again, I know it's crazy, but I just love this guy that much.

In the meantime (that time BEFORE he turns 1), I'm planning a Dedication Party for my sweet little man. With 3 weeks left, I need to get on it! With the pile of laundry staring me in the face and the fact that I have someplace to be in an hour and a half, I should probably stop pretending I have so much free time (praise the Lord for baby naps!) and do something to myself (definitely still in jammies). Be blessed everyone :)

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Dieting While Nursing Is A Joke

Seriously. I was really outside of my own mind when I decided to diet while nursing. It's damn near impossible! I find myself craving sweet treats ALL through the day and portion control is bonkers. If I don't eat enough I wake up at 3 am starving and I end up heading straight for Carb City, USA, exact location; my kitchen. I came up with a solution to fix this problem, that works on the days when I'm not slacking and thought I'd share.

Breakfast

- Honey Bunches of Oats w/ Almonds - sometimes I'll toss in sliced banana or fresh organic blueberries and I always use Rice Milk since Risto doesn't handle dairy/cheese very well. Plus Rice Milk is amazing

Snack
- Craisins or Trail Mix
- Light popcorn
- Cut up veggies

Any variation of this, sometimes all 3! The good news is, not one of them is horrible for you. If I'm doing cut up veggies I love to dip them in hummus.

Lunch - I eat 1 of 2 things daily

- chicken salad with veggies and a light balsamic drizzle
- turkey salad with craisins and apple and a rasberry vinegrate drizzle

I always go for nitrate free meats. Not only are they bad for boys while nursing, they're just bad in general. No one should eat anything with nitrates in it. Period.

Snack -
- Fiber One Oats and Chocolate Bar - My chocolatey fix for the day! Plus, keeps me regular ;)

Dinner-

Now this is where I go crazy! If I stick to my healthy diet during the day, I allow myself to eat to my hearts delight in the evenings. Trevor and I eat fairly healthy anyways, so it's never to big of a stretch, but I allow myself that extra serving and don't mind having dessert.

Dieting while nursing is a joke, but it doesn't have to be impossible! I think of it a few different ways. If I eat healthier, Risto is getting even better nutrients and that's a HUGE motivation for me. And I've also become very aware of the fact that God didn't create the unhealthy, genetically modified garbage we can find so easily in a grocery store. Man created that junk. God want's me to care for the body He gave me while I'm on this earth, and I intend to do my best to make Him proud.

Living a healthier lifestyle for me goes beyond the physical. It goes beyond me wanting to feel better about myself or be beautiful for my husband. It's about me being a good steward of my body. I only have and I'm pretty sure God wants me to take great care of it.

Hopefully you other nursing Mama's or even Mama's just trying to get in better shape/healthier habits find some part of this useful or helpful, and by all means, if you have any tips or tricks... SHARE THEM!

Monday, March 14, 2011

Lent

Lent. Last year I gave up facebook. This year I had planned on giving up red meat until I talked with my dad. He just expressed his thoughts on Lent and what sacrifices should truly be made. He told me that Jesus did on the cross so we could live a life of abundance and nothing we give up for 40 days will compare to what Jesus sacrificed on the cross. Never thought of that before. It's pretty true. What did me giving up facebook really do? And what was me giving up red meat gonna do?? Uh, how's about a whole bucket full of nothing. Seriously? I gave up social networking. How is that glorifying to God's kingdom? It isn't.

My dad suggested a bunch of different things I COULD do that would bring glory to God and His kingdom, while at the same time pushing me to sacrifice more of my time. If you know what's going on in my life right now, you'd know I really don't have the time to squeeze in a shower, let alone giving up the few spare minutes I have in a day (don't worry, I don't stink. I've discovered 7 am, ugh).

I've got a few things in mind. For starters, I joined the campaign 40 Days of Water - http://40days.bloodwatermission.com/
Check it out, it's a great cause. Anyways, I'm doing a couple other things. Mostly "surprises" including 1 I'm pretty pumped about. Gonna sign up to feed the homeless with our church, which will be hard because I have to bring Risto. Also it might be a bit dangerous. I have to call tomorrow and chat with them about it, but I REALLY want to go help out. Can't leave Drool King because he's nursing.

Any who. Really think about the things you're sacrificing. Are they really sacrifices?

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Spanx and Poop

Oh, Spanx. What was my life before I knew you?? You've come into my life at a time when my body is less then perfect and you've helped suck my fat rolls into jeans that don't have an expandable waist band. And just when I thought this relationship couldn't get any better, you protected my legs from the gift of a massive blow out during a church service from my darling son. You selflessly sacrificed yourself to make my ride home just a tad bit more bearable, and I thank you for it.


Seriously... my son had the WORST blow out during church today. I sort of thought he was getting sick again while I got him dressed, but wasn't expecting to have to leave church early! And oh man the looks you get walking through church with poop literally all over you and your child! Once Trevor and I got into the hallway, I BUSTED a gut! It was a pretty funny site, especially since I was holding him away from my body (in an effort to keep from getting anymore poop on me). There was no keeping that a secret.



So, tomorrow is my kick off of getting in shape. So as much as I love my Spanx, I'm hoping I can tuck them neatly in a drawer until after my next pregnancy. Cheers to 40 in 4!

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

40 in 4



















Well, I don't quite know how these photos ended up in this order, but I'll explain.
The first shot was taking when I was about 10 weeks along. The third is exactly 7 days before Risto was born (and 1 day after he was due). The one smack dab in the middle... why that, my friends is what the average woman's post pregnancy belly looks like. If you are one of the "lucky" ones, please advert your eyes to the following. You have been warned.


What is up with those freak of nature chicks who never outgrow their favorite pair of size 4 Hudson jeans? You know the girl. The one you see sprawled out on the beach at 9 months without a stretch mark in sight. Freaks. Of. Nature. I honestly thought I'd be one of those women and was pretty discouraged when it turns out I wasn't. It's hard to go from a size 8 to a 14 (which is what I'm in now).

The reason I posted the shot of what my belly looks like (literally) today, is to encourage those women who's bodies aren't "perfect" anymore. YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!! We should start a club; I Am Mama; Hear Me ROAR!! This is what real women look like after having babies. Oh, ps... women who look flawless still after delivery, I'm only jealous and you are real women too. You better be thanking God for the elastisity (I know that's spelled wrong) of your skin! Anyways, on with the show.

40 in 4 is my campaign in losing my baby weight. Now I know you're probably thinking "hey I thought you were empowering women to feel comfortable as they are, stretch marks, saggy skin and all!" Well I am, but I really and truly believe that we, as women, should do what we need to do in order to feel sexy and confident again. For me, rebuilding my confidence involves me losing me saggy belly. I could really care less about my stretch marks, that's just my mark of Motherhood, and there is NOTHING wrong with stretch marks ladies! They make you more beautiful. They let the world know, during swimsuit season, that you did it! You carried a child for 9 months and pushed that little blessing out. You endured morning sickness, rapid weight gain and a level 4 tear. We're warriors.

40 represents the amount of weight I plan on losing.
4 represents the months I'm taking to do it.

Ambitious, right? I know! I'm intimidated but so excited to begin this process of just plain old living healthier. Even if I don't meet my end of July goal, becoming a more healthy person for my son and husband will be enough for me. I'm ready baby weight. Kiss yourself goodbye

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Struggles and Solutions

Yesterday I mentioned a situation I can't go into detail about just yet. Well I still can't go into detail, but the difference between last night and today is an overwhelming peace. There's nothing greater then knowing (or in my case being reassured) of just how faithful God is.

Yesterday I was pretty upset. Aside from having a 3 month old baby I'm also helping care for my mom who recently had a pretty major surgery. I've had to take on a lot of responsibilities including finding my roll as not just a new mom, but a wife. This season of life is different from any other season I've experienced. I opened up to my husband (Trevor, for those of you who may have forgotten who I married) about how I was feeling like I wasn't giving my best to him or to Risto. I told him that it was especially hard for me to know that Risto isn't getting my best. They were both getting tired, frumpy left overs.

I've always pictured myself as a wife of the 50's vacuuming in my favorite pearls... cooking gourmet meals. The wife you see in old school movies. It's the wife I've always aspired to be. What they don't show you on tv is real life situations. Most women don't have time to be June Cleaver. I realize now that I was really getting down on myself for expectations that were, quite frankly, VERY unrealistic. Having those expectations put me into this melting pot or anxiety, stress, sleepless nights and worst of all, insecurities.

Those are my struggles, here's my solution.

God.

Plain and simple He is my solution. I fell asleep praying last night, giving God my cares and concerns and asking Him to change my heart. I really wasn't prepared for just how refreshed I woke up feeling today. I feel like I can tackle the world, in a realistic sense. God showed me that I'm only one person and if my best today only involves me cleaning my kitchen, then hey... that's good enough.

I have such a better attitude and perspective on my responsibilities. They seem less like daunting chores and more like.. I don't know.. freedom. Free because I'm no longer a victim of the stronghold that is expectations. Free because I really am learning to take each task at hand as an opportunity to better serve my Creator by better serving His people, and that is a very freeing experience.

Alright, enough of that.
I'm very determined to write about a particular topic that would require me to post a certain picture that I'm still trying to gain the confidence to do. This is me keeping myself accountable. Tomorrow, the world will see what an average woman's belly looks like after gaining 60 pounds in a pregnancy. Yikes. I'll explain more tomorrow. Look forward to it, it's gonna be a good one!